a piece of song from hoobastank below will conclude everything i wrote in case you dont have a time to read it all. yeah, i dont care you read it or not though...,
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
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i realized that i am not always get what i want.but i will get what i deserve.. so from now on i stop to ask for something but do nothing, and start to build my self in order to get what i want because i deserve it.
i will show you that i deserve to get you and everything i want....
i will show you that all my talk is not only talk.
i will show you that i am man in action not man in word.
i was born as a leader and i show you how great i am as a leader is,
just laugh at me now..., cause i knew i deserve it.
but in the nick of time, i'll make sure that i will laugh last.
now, i know you maybe better than me, smarter than me, and yeah, even if i love you so, in your eyes i am just a dust or worse, nothing.
yeah, just think and talk whatever you want. but one thing for sure, i'll prove to you that i'm not just a piece of shit that you can ignore in your live.
from now on, i will work harder than anyone else, work smarter than anyone else, and work better than enyone else. i'll do everything to make sure you will notice me, just you, i dont care anyone else.
so when that time is came, you just have two option. first, you accept me and it's good for both of us. the second , you reject me and you will regret it. because you just let a great person go to another girl's hug. to make sure i can get up when thing aint going right, i promise you tonight...
i promise you, i give my everything to built and improve my self so that i can be someone who worth for other and especially for you
i promise my self, that i will not break my promise for you
i promise my self, you, my parent, that i will take my live seriously with humour in it.
just wait for me if you want, but if you dont, that is your choice, but in the end of this words, i just wanna say to you tonight
" I LOVE YOU....!!!!!"
" BUT IT'S NOT MEAN I NEED YOU...!!!"
hahaha..., i heard those words in the high tone in my head. i dont know why, but i am so excited tonight. i am in high motivation right now.
so.....,
"goodbye my fucking facebook, i'll see you when i need to share my thought like this
.goodbye my fucking twitter , i'll see you when i need to share something important.
i hope you two in a good shape when i see you. maybe once in a mounth.
and..., with a warm hands, i coming back to you my KOMPASIANA account. i am sorry i leave you alone. but dont worry, from now on, i will give you my great article, my great short story, my great poem, and make friends with a thousand writer there."
"goodbye my fucking anime and movie, i will rarely wacth you from now on :')"
"goodbye my laptop, i will never use you for nothing anymore. just wacth me, i will use you for learning and writing. so you no need to worry anymore about your body that almost everyday in burning because of me"
"goodbye my friends who drag me down espeially for you PROGRASTINATION and LAZYNESS. i hate my self because of you two. just get out of my life. ah you two dont need to worry how to get out of my life. beause right now, i am in a position to kick your assess."
" and welome for you my good friends who will aompany me in this journey., WORKHARD, PERSEVERANCE, PASSION, PATIENT, AND ALL POSITIVE ATTITUTE.. with you all i'll SHOW and PROVE my self to my self, to her, and to the world that I CAN DO THE GREAT THINGS.. and surely, those dreams are waitng for me, just run away wherever you want, i will cacth you without a doubt.
"and yeah goodbye to you too, my sweetheart, for a while. i am in a struggle to be a great person for you now. so i must forget about you sometimes.
i say sometimes because your fucking face always come to me without a notice-____-. you can wacth me if you want but you can ignore me like you used to be.
yeah i know you you maybe even dont have a time to read this things more over me. -__-. but, yeah, i'll see you later with the new me of course . dont surprise if that day came.
" to make sure i dont forget my promises, i will copas it in here. even though i will rarely see facebook, but yeah, dont worry i have written what i have to do to improve y self in the wall of dream. ok i mean in the wall of my boarding house".
i promise you, i give my everything to built my self so that i can be someone who worth for other and especially for you
i promise my self, that i will not break my promise for you
i promise my self, you, my parent, that i will take my live seriously with humour in it.
ny the way, now is "kesaktian pancasila day" and i think it;s a good day to do make a brand new start in order to get a great new ending.
salam perjuangan,
cause live is a struggle with happiness in it .....
01 oktober 2014,